was crazy. up until the last night, it seemed like just another retreat; and like always, i was expecting a retreat high on the last night like i always do. but that last night.. it was life changing. i’ve nevercried at a retreat. but it finally struck me how wretched my sins were and how deeply they could hurt not just myself, but others as well, including the BYG ministry. and that night i was just completely broken down. and then it occurred to me that even though i’m so sinful, so selfish, and so inconsiderate, that God loved me enough to send his perfect son to die for me and for all others like me.
before this retreat, i was seriously doubting my faith. i took the gospel for granted and used God’s forgiveness as an excuse to do whatever i wanted. now i feel firm in the fact that i do believe and i really hope that instead of using the gospel as an excuse, that i now fully appreciate it and do whatever i can to thank God and repay Him for being a loving Father.